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I rarely write these days. a good friend told that maybe because I'm too happy, he also add ''whats wrong with you and the depressive writing?'' I was like, well he got it right. is not like I'm that happy. I just found myself moving forward. I realize that there are view things I must left in my life. the huge one is the bereavement. The bitter point of my life which really drowning me deep. the death and untold stories. When my dad gone, he left me clueless and hurt. That was the first time to me facing coffin with someone close to me inside not to mention the first time being a stupid swollen face main cast at the funeral. through all the tears some disease come along with it. the disease when my heart stop to beat at couple seconds every time I hear words like, hospital, corps, some particular serious illness that has to do with blood and dad. The disease when the noise from ambulance was freaking me out. not even have time to healing, my grandmother follow ...

'If you're going to San Francisco Be sure to wear some flowers in your hair If you're going to San Francisco You're gonna meet some gentle people there' to my father and grandma. there some wishes from me. to your path. both of you. I know it isn't San Fransisco take place. but I hope that was a better place than here. somewhere nice. with nice people and weather, with some flowers too. top of that I'll pray for you. I know, you did that to me. so long. so.. long.

Ada perbedaan dengan kehilangan nyawa dan kehilangan kehidupan. Tidak seperti kehilangan nyawa yang mengakhiri semuanya, setiap kita bisa kehilangan kehidupan bahkan disaat kita masih hidup. kehilangan tanpa pernah merasa kehilangan, tanpa kesadaran. lebih buruk, kehilangan tanpa tau apa yang hilang. tanpa tahu apa yang dimiliki. seperti beberapa orang yang tetap hidup tanpa sadar mereka telah lama mati. kehidupannya. saya sering mendengar kabar seseorang kehilangan nyawanya. setiapp hari tiap detik ribuan jiwa mengalir pergi dari tubuh. hal yang menyakitkan. namun tidak menyedihkan. karena memang seperti itu yang seharusnya terjadi. Sakit kah kecelakaan kah dibunuh kah terbunuh kah semua alasan kepergian nyawa adalah hal yang seharusnya sudah disuratkan. seharusnya lebih sering lagi saya melihat seseorang yang telah kehilangan kehidupannya tanpa kehilangan nyawanya. lebih sederhana, kehilangan makna kehidupannya. hidup tanpa arah hidup tanpa sadar kalau hidup adalah kepemilikan. Sebua...

It's been sooo long! you know, task and college always keep me away from blogging. I'm thinking to write something, so here I am, thinking about sentence to begin with. The news is I got to design an orphanage as this semester task. The good news is my cousin planned to celebrate her seventeen birthday at an orphanage so she invited me and  I got a chance to take a look, to chat and learn. It was amazing. Both the party and the place. Also the people, specially the kids. I got a little goosebumps when thinking how life can be that difficult and complicate for some people. When they forced to think about life at the very young age. How six years old kid can be so mature and well speaking. These kids background stories probably like something you usually read on some of Dicken's novels or 70's black and white movies about life and reality. That was Andrew, a little boy that I said earlier (6 years old, mature and well speaking) I was thinking a lot about this little boy. ...

the full holidays encounter by blur and low quality photo the full holidays encounter by high quality and clear memories. why were no cloud days when my name is claudya?  hehe. have a nice day!

bisa jadi adalah salah satu frase yg paling banyak digunain para motivator buat ngejawab pertanyaan. pertanyaan- pertanyaan yg biasa didapet sama motivator atau yang ditanyakan oleh kita yah emang ga mencakup area yang terlalu luas. paling juga seputar kehidupan. seputar hidup masing- masing. kenapa saya begini kenapa saya begitu kenapa dia begini kenapa dia begitu kenapa dia begini tapi saya begini kenapa dia begitu tapi saya begitu hal- hal yang seperti ini. manusia itu. walaupun udah pasti mau melakukan apa atau mengambil keputusan apa, dia bakal tetep bertanya pendapat orang lain. walaupun ada seribu pendapat dari seribu orang paling juga cuma jadi hiasan, dan karena emang hiasan itu sifatnya ga berguna, pendapat orang lain itu juga banyak kali bersifat ngga guna. karena egois emang udah sifat dasarnya manusia setara dengan laper, haus, dan insomia. ada salah satu motivator yang lumayan dikenal di indonesia yang pernah berpendapat seperti ini, "orang kaya itu adalah orang yang...

smart and fun letterpress prints by Sapling Press found via Serif & Sans  (check this if you want some modern and simple fine design inspiration)