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. HOME IS ALL I could think the time I hear the word Christmas. When the right time to set the tree? is living room still the best position to put them? What's great for Christmas eve dinner? are presents necessary?  My december will always revolve around home and eventually family. I know for a fact that this Christmas will be another Christmas without my dad and grandma. The third for my dad and second for the latter (geez ayrine, counting much?)  My december will always revolve around home, family, and eventually a sad heart twist. Because there aren't too delicious cakes can replace a particular heartwarming chuckle, or some classy christmas jingles can replace an exchange smiles and sharing laughter. I'd like to talk the sadness away with my mom or my brother but its pretty embarrassing to admit that I wouldn't be able to talk to anyone without shed some tears.  So I choose to write it instead. That's all I'm better at. What you'll be doing this Christm...

(Opposite) the weather is so hot I can see the sunlight ripped through the thick windows. I miss the rain. I hate you like I hate the word selfie and the font comic sans. People gather all the words, confuse people. you have to find the right distance between people. too close, and they overwhelm you, too far and they abandon you. - Hanif Kureishi Miss I miss you so much I could kill a giant black furry bear just by staring at it. But because there are no big black furry bears around, I'm off to bed and try to kiss you in my sleep instead. - Wasted Rita Flaws all of your flaws and all of my flaws are laid out one by one. look at the wonderful mess that we made, we pick ourselves undone. - flaws by Bastille I don't know a perfect person. I only know flawed people who are still worth loving. - John Green You I never imagined you would settle with someone so ordinary when I thought you were extraordinary. But that was probably the typical thought for someone in love. You know the ...

IT'S ELEVEN AT NIGHT it’s been raining all day long and the air become kind of sappy. I’ve been doing my task this whole day and need to take a break to write some paragraph I don’t know, for relax a bit maybe? I’ve read so many different stories this weeks and there are some passages here and there in my system that keep pop up suddenly and make me want to read the story again.      Did you ever been in this kind of situation? When there are some part of the story you have read come and come again to your mind, you can’t help but to read the story all over again. I just hope I got all time in the world. Here are some facts about my week: First, I drew a little bruise on my right knees when I accidentally fell off the stair by my campus cafeteria. The hurt of it was nothing compare to the humiliated laugh my friends gave. They’re pure evil. Ugh. I keep thinking what the hell happen to me recently. I got fall and or drop things from my hold an awful lot. My phone, mouse an...

Have you watched the movie Gravity ? what do you think about it? I have this crush on space and anything related with galaxy and outer universe so, I could say that I love this movie. I was pretty much drunk by the sight of the black area with stars and the round edge of blue-green earth as a background.      it was beautiful. The plot is pretty simple. In fact there are only two living cast for the whole movie, angling the character Ryan Stone with technically her partner, Matt, floating around without gravity trying to survive themselves through the spacewalk incident. Going trough what they called 'blind' to go back to the earth. well, this got me thinking that earth is kinda easy. at least we got o2 enough for thinking.

IT'S RAINING outside and the air is chill when I stepped out of my doorway. I just can't sleep without the AC on no matter how cold the night is. Close to the regular tendency of people who needs the light off when they sleep. I'm stuck with familiarity and even if there are somethings that drew me bore, there are also some of the things I need them to stay just the same. They stay the same and it already enough for me. More than enough. I hate to say that I was feeling this whole habit with someone. a person. I mean how bad is that, to settled your feeling for the thing with the highest possibilities to change. People changed and never stay the same, right? so it's pretty wrong to believe someone will stay with you until the very end. It doesn't matter how much time you spent together or how many things you got in common. it never mattered.

NOW. The old fan I use to cooling my laptop started to get too noisy I had to turn it off. This machine will be real hot in an hour or so and I need to write this quicker. I have just watched cnblue zepp tour live concert  video and it left me with so many feels. By the way, I came to their concert at Jakarta last week and write a little note about it  here      yesterday, saturday. I've had a bad throat condition. I've met a view new people and one of them are the really irritating type of person. I know I will get myself into trouble when I decided to be the responsible one. know that I will regret it later, but still do it though. stupid me.      two days before, I've missed someone and wished if only things didn't go this way. This whole new situation. I hate it.      thursday. day off! borrowed some books back to now. I'm starting to bore over this layout, and thought I need a change. Me and my changing layout sickness (some o...

I’d prefer to have someone wait for me in the rain rather than someone constantly bring flower and spilled -I love yous. Someone simply hold and be there rather than someone ask too many questions. Comfortable silents and low whisper of names. Someone write songs about rainbows and butterflies rather than possess song with -i’d die if you’re not mine, in every sentences. Mother Mother, have you seen your laughter Fall into the arms of angels Mother if you see me I’m alright. Range of clouds on sunny weather rise onto the breeze of meadow. Mother did you help God paint the sky? - There aren’t that three letter words yet I feel the romantics of it. Fond and light and warm are all I feel while swallow every bit of this new album from Adhitia Sofyan, ‘How to stop time’. I love the way the lyrics speak in an almost subtle way about love itself. I always hope I can have it in me, the ability to write such simple and honest words and compose them into beautiful melodies. God. I adore those p...