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I REMEMBER READING this book about different worlds exist with different rule of time. One that catch my memory is the world where people discovered that time moves slowly the farther from the center of earth. So people build their house as high as they could. They build their shelter at the top of the mountain feeling secure that youth will stay with them longer than whoever at lower level of earth. At this point, I was thought what's so glorious about live young as long as you can when you'll get old eventually, about live as long as you can when you'll die eventually. But the idea of staying a little longer from wrinkle are kind of tempting maybe.

source - edited . Making list + reminiscing : nice combination! I saw this meme at Srslyliz blog, and would like to give it a try. first of, Liz had that kind of teenage-to-adult phase, while me, well I realized that I hadn't had any drastic changes therefore I could still find the past me in me present. but really what could change one into sort of mature version of themselves. I need to know Leisure now : reading + music  then : friends + trip + music Listening to now : singer songwriter like damien rice, sufjan stevens, radical face, lana del rey, tallest man on earth and british rock too. then : the beatles, the trees and the wild, janet jackson, latin classic, louis armstrong Watching now : romcom still but I can't stand any cheesy drama anymore. I love suspense and some of indie animation like mary and max. then : asian drama, romantic comedy, horror  Attitude now: more open + thinker + free then: careless + picky about friends {actually didn't really like 'peop...

I KNOW BOOK REVIEW is plainly uninteresting and I can't so much write a review without spoil something I shouldn't, so I would just do the quick write about what I'm feeling now. Right after I finished the fault in our stars. I know T.Rex is just not the right music background but I listened to electric warrior couple of times in repeat while I was read the copy anyway.      So, my feel. quoting other book character: 'I'm feeling infinite'      but of course some infinite are bigger than other infinite (quoting Van Houten) so, I didn't mean to tell you these are anything important. but still. First of, I think everyone basically need their Augustus Waters, maybe not in those blue eyes and gorgeous crooked smile, and hope not the one-leg one but everyone need that kind of teenage love. or maybe that kind of love at their teenage. miraculous. I'm saying that if someone ever got this kind of mutual relationship like Hazel and Gus then it would be miraculou...

"Airports see more sincere kisses than wedding halls. The walls of hospitals have heard more prayers than the walls of churches" src What a deep conclusion, right? I've seen some really unsincere kisses and prayers. I would rather never do both of them at all. so quick update, I had lost my dreams. maybe because the view quick sleeps at the deadline weeks. Because I'm too tired. I'm still sad though. I'd lost my quality sleep recently and I need to recover in order to get my quality dreams back. Did you notice, that dreams often be my post topic? ugh. I know, boring as hell. 

     I SHALL BEGIN THIS POST with a sad story. I had lost my phone about two weeks ago, it never the best of machine, the touch screen one and all but it had accompany me for more than two years by every stories and trips. The need is for when it produce music, I can hardly right without listen musics on my way to college or other places and I can't afford buying a new one one of these days {can't ask mom everything, barely anything} so; silent trip.      Quick replacement. reads for songs. I'd decided to borrow some books, two books per attempt to read while I'm on train and they bandaged my lost pretty well. OKAY that's too cheesy for a sentence. Don't blame me that I can only read classic and classic from my campus library because apparently the novels section are for the english lit major and not at all for amusement reads.      Very considerate institute. Talking about amusement. I finished Hard Times by Charles Dickens, which introduce ...

      BYE BYE THIRTEEN. you've been so predictable, tiring, sad and dull and and.. and I'm just kidding you queer. You've been just enough. It's not like we can sum up a whole year into one or two paragraphs, so I'm trying to make a list hope that everything will be enough said. here I go, first.      I'm looking back into my old 2013 posts and just then I realise that this blog had grown into some kind of washbowl where I commit to vomiting every now and then. Like flipping through daily newspaper to find something decent to read but failed. since all I write are some perpetual rambling. and that is one thing I promised myself I would change, I didn't want to be that person who drown into poignancy in their twenties.      2nd. Early in 2013 I decided I won't make any resolution, trying to be reasonable with I don't want to limit myself but end up simply because I don't care. early in 2013, I was trying to focus and brought my head back in co...

SOMETIMES, I dream about the most better thing that could happen in my life. Everything I wish could be happen or everything I miss, or for more exact, everyone I miss. Is that crazy to say, that someone who had gone is actually never really go because they live in my dreams? not everyday and every dreams, but they do. And it's crazy to say that I could feel their existence real, almost like it wasn't a dream. Almost like this now, is a dream. and sometimes, almost like they never go in the first place, and I just dream about people in my house that I will see them when I'm awake. because I was never a lucid dreamer I didn't know it wasn't real when I'm in it. and when I'm awake all I could think of is how much I wanted to stay because that would be a very beautiful chance. The probability to hear and see. The idea of always being together. Other days, same dreams. It's been three or more days in a row that my dreams taken at real places, real houses and...