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      BYE BYE THIRTEEN. you've been so predictable, tiring, sad and dull and and.. and I'm just kidding you queer. You've been just enough. It's not like we can sum up a whole year into one or two paragraphs, so I'm trying to make a list hope that everything will be enough said.
here I go, first.
     I'm looking back into my old 2013 posts and just then I realise that this blog had grown into some kind of washbowl where I commit to vomiting every now and then. Like flipping through daily newspaper to find something decent to read but failed. since all I write are some perpetual rambling. and that is one thing I promised myself I would change, I didn't want to be that person who drown into poignancy in their twenties.
     2nd.
Early in 2013 I decided I won't make any resolution, trying to be reasonable with I don't want to limit myself but end up simply because I don't care. early in 2013, I was trying to focus and brought my head back in college, repair and pay. Almost didn't care with anything other than that. I was craving time to be alone, rejecting offers, avoiding group of people and didn't really like to talk about anything to anyone. Unconsciously place myself as a third person who just saw the bad side of anything. the negative polar of people which are disappointing and never sincere.
     3rd.
big days like birthdays and christmas always have their parasitic power to me. I will feel an unnecessary sadness toward who weren't there anymore. I have this ultimate list to make myself out of the said sadness:
     eating too hot cup noodles while watch some episodes of grey's anatomy, making myself into a cocoon under the blanket with too cold a/c temperature, playing guitar, playing sad songs with it. The best of them is vomiting-blogging.
    four four.
in the middle of after the early, I had realise that there will be always a good side in everything, the worst case even. That there will be always the right group of friends or right person to be joking around with, and actually forget what kind of state you came before.
    5th. 6th.
I have experienced some new things, joined a lifestyle Indonesian online media, reported some music concerts, and attended my favorite band concert. Into something that look like love.
    Things I would like to do this year, all that I could think for this moment: seven grow out my bangs until it the same length with my longest hair layer. eight I need to buy a decent camera. ninth dying my end part of hair dark blue and keep them for a week. tenth drinking beer mix with a melted white chocolate {idk I just got and idea} eleven watch a fireworks show at the end of the 2014 twelve read more books, learn to stop swearing, design more, and last, the thirteenth, learn to find the classy closure to ending a post